I AM TRIPOLAR

IamTRIPOLAR

BY ALLE GONZALEZ

“I Am Not Bipolar.

I AM TRIPOLAR”

A Journey Of Self-Discovery And Self-Acceptance

Both MEN and WOMEN suffer from the stigma of
bipolarity. More and more, we get to know people who are diagnosed with bipolar disorder, depression, anxiety, and panic attacks.

Some of us have been diagnosed, and we have received medical care. So many have not been diagnosed and go through life thinking they are not worthy, they are not strong, that something is not okay with them, and they cannot understand what it is. Hundreds of people of all ages suffer in silence, not understanding themselves.

I AM DETERMINED TO BEAT THE STIGMA OF BIPOLARITY.

My book is not a book of tragedy, it is a book of reflection. I hope that through my experiences and through my understanding of this diagnosis and its implications, many families, partners, and patients can learn to live in peace with someone who is bipolar or bipolar.

CALLING OURSELVES BIPOLAR IS AN UNDERSTATEMENT. It is a limiting belief and does not honor the fantastic human beings that we are. We are more than the two moods between which our emotions fluctuate.”

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Canada
March 22, 2023
    

One of the strengths of this book is its accessibility. She writes in a way that is both approachable and relatable. She offers practical tips and advice for managing mental health challenges, while also emphasizing the importance of seeking help and finding support. As a mental health advocate herself, Alle is passionate about destigmatizing mental illness and promoting understanding and acceptance. Her book serves as a call to action for all of us to work towards creating a more compassionate and inclusive world for those living with mental health conditions. "Tri-Polar: The Story of a Mental Health Advocate" is a must-read for anyone interested in mental health, advocacy, or simply gaining a deeper understanding of the human experience. Tri-polar's inspiring journey is a testament to the resilience of the human spirit and the power of hope in the face of adversity.

Canada
March 22, 2023
    

Honest and vibrant account in an emerging literary fashion. The author paints a good picture of a bipolar patient’s journey of self discovery. Filled with Hope and Joy amidst the reality of it all. Kudos to Alle and her brave attempt at connecting with the reader and broaden the path for all involved in this

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Alle Gonzalez

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Alle’s vision as a bipolar patient helps clarify many of the myths and the stigmas surrounding this diagnosis. Using what she calls her TRIPOLAR gift, she presents to all of us a journey of self-discovery and self-acceptance.

Her inquisitive mind leads her on a journey to learn about mental health, especially being bipolar, and what the diagnosis entails. Her insights helped her to understand the effects the diagnosis had on her as a patient, in her relationships with family, colleagues, and friends, and to reflect on which strategies she could use to minimize the effects.

She shares some strategies that helped her to create awareness and manage bipolar swings and how she overcame the fear of using medication. These strategies have helped her to become productive and keep up with a life worth living.

Learning to validate her own condition, she looks at being bipolar as a gift she needs to unravel. In her journey, she answered many questions that helped her understand that being bipolar is manageable and one can be functional.

THIS IS MY STORY

I was diagnosed as a Bipolar II patient in July 2005 after I suffered a manic episode that landed me in the psychiatric ward of the Oakville Trafalgar Hospital. My life was never the same after that experience. It was hurtful and I did not understand what happened. I was not myself. Many years went by before I could talk about it and come to terms with my own experience. I needed time to understand the consequences of the bipolar II diagnoses on my life.

The hardest thing about bipolar condition is that those who live with you cannot help you. They are too close, too emotionally involved and they cannot handle being with you when you are in this state. When I was having clinical depression, I could not wake up and get up from my bed, people asked me to rely on my willpower and I tried to look for help. This did not work, I had to deal with it on my own.

Once I could get myself out of bed, I could move on to doing things. Yes, once I got out of bed, I was able to cook, clean, wash, drive, and work. It was the night that ate me up. It was difficult for my family to see where I was, and I understood that was the reason why they could not help me.

I felt like I had a ticking bomb inside my head. I could not wait for the unconscious part of my brain to stop. The thoughts that took over my being during the night made me wake up exhausted and unable to stand up. I feared for the day that my frontal cortex would be beaten. The moment when my subconscious would overpower my reasoning and my will and I would end up doing things that I did not believe in. I understood, at that moment, where the self-harming and sadly, suicidal thoughts abide and where they would sink into a bipolar mind. I understood what could happen to me if I did not do something about it.

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As we can’t get together physically with family, loved ones, in the ways that we used to do, visits, hugging, just enjoying one another’s company, we have been forced to change.

To change means each of us has had to discover in our own personal way the meaning behind this struggle.

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Maybe buried inside of me. Maybe buried so far away from me that only a catastrophe of this magnitude could reveal it. I don’t want to go back. I fear life will take over again and that treasure I found will somehow get lost again. Life is like that.

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This awareness of space, time and story is something I experience only when I write. My dream of writing is a reality in this moment of time, and it is not an outlet. An outlet to pain, anger or frustration. It is a gift.

An opportunity to live for the first time my life aware of the present moment. Every word I write is now in the past.
The blank space that follows will only be in the future for a bit and will only be there as long as I can do what I am doing right now. I am letting my eyes, my heart and my mind work in perfect harmony.

I write what I think, but I don’t know what it is. I see what I write and that surprises me because I can’t explain where it is coming from.

This process of writing is honestly an insane gift. Hope the writing of these short stories inspire you the reader, helps you as the PROTAGONISTA THE MAIN CHARACTER of your own story and leads your life, in some way, to explore the amazing power of the written word. That is the greatest gift of all times, we can learn from each other. A gift brought to us by the typewriter.

“In 2005, I was fortunate to move into a home right beside Alexandra. I was most impressed with her cheerful, upbeat attitude while juggling the demands of her family. Although she was very busy with a newborn and two school-aged children, Alexandra always found time to serve her church and give herself to those who needed her. Over the years she’s become a steadfast, supportive friend, who is never too busy to lend a hand when needed. Her positive mindset, easy smile, and kind heart make her easy to love. I am grateful to have such a special big-hearted friend in my life.”

—KIM L. London, Ontario

“Alexa is the epitome of a renaissance woman. She has the ability to coordinate her broad range of education, compassion, empathy and motivation to herself and others. Alexa’s enthusiasm is contagious as is evident by the amount of yarn I have amassed!!! Alexa encouraged me to crochet as a form of healing. Her supportive reassurance has led me to make blankets for those who need comfort. Alexa pays it forward.”

—NAOMI T. Mississauga, Ontario

“Alexandra is a very intelligent, energetic and loving lady. She is full of wonderful ideas always geared to help her community, not only in spiritual ways, but also anything related to help us grow and become better human beings. I’ve been part of Alex’s initiatives not only as a participant member, but also donating my time and ideas or knowledge. Alex’s initiatives have given me the opportunity to know and belong to a group of likeminded women who have become a very important part of my life! I have learned many different things through the past decade being part of the activities organized by Alex . . . from cooking or being more efficient at the daily tasks of a homemaker to the hardest job of how to be a better parent and wife. I’m grateful for all that Alex has given our local community and me personally as well! I’m a better person because of her generous heart!”

—DINORAH M. Oakville, Ontario

“I admire Alexa deeply. I consider her a genius and a warrior. Her faith, persistence and resilience have helped her to turn the solitude of her bipolar condition into ART. In the years we have been together as friends, I have seen her overcome battles and turn obstacles into evolution and development of her professional and personal self. She is an exceptionally kind-hearted and generous woman and an unconditional friend with a sweet and pure heart that inspires other women. Alexa reminds me of Chiron the Centaur in Greek Mythology. During a skirmish with a rowdy bunch of centaurs, Hercules accidentally wounded his friend and mentor, Chiron, in the knee with one of his arrows . . . The arrows Hercules had chosen to use were coated with the blood of the monster Hydra. Arrows coated with the blood of the Hydra were known to cause painful wounds that would never heal. Chiron would never be able to heal from the wound caused by Hercules and being immortal, he could never die. Chiron, a centaur, was known as a wise teacher, healer and prophet. He learns about deep pain and suffering, both in body and soul. Through the acceptance of his own struggles, he becomes The Wounded Healer. He can heal others even if he can’t heal himself, condemned to everlasting pain. He could have become embittered or turned it into anger against others, instead, his pain made him wise, taught him about the nature of pain and thus made him the greatest healer in Greek Mythology. For me Alexa is represented in this legend.”

—ALEX M. Canadian Latino Experimental Theatre, Ontario

“In the time that I have known Alexa I have admired her persistence and her focus. She is the kind of person who puts dreams on paper and fulfills them. She is super detailed and has a clear sense of organization, planning and development. Also, she is multifaceted, with ideas and dreams that she realizes step by step, and when one transmits one to her, her hands begin to move at a magical speed, transcribing dreams on paper to give them color, a path to follow to become concrete. She is a very charismatic, respectful person, faithful to her dreams and beliefs. I believe that being so active and always helping to achieve goals has helped her condition of being Bipolar to take a back seat. Her love to grow, develop and learn is much stronger. She is a very charismatic human being. It has been a pleasure to meet her and to be able to dream together.”

—VICKY CHIAPPARI, Mississauga Players Theatre Group, Ontario

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